Patricia on Alzheimer's

Patricia is a 90 year old woman who had died a few months earlier after having Alzheimer's for 20 years. She is speaking to her daughter. . .

"...I actually had the most unusual of lives and I wanted to speak to you about that so you would recognize that what happened to me in terms of the illness is not some misfortune or random act that was a tragic kind of turn. I want you to get that there was something about me that was very agreeable to that. I know that sounds strange to you. When you would have such an ability to live life more vibrantly and more in touch with things, why would you choose to be in such a state of dysfunction? I know that if I were looking at me the same way you are I would ask the same thing. Why would anybody get any value whatsoever out of living through what I did these last 20 years before I left? So I'm going to give you a different view - not only so you'll hear it and know it is true but so you can reach out and help others when the time comes...""You ask, "Mom, why is it you would want such an experience?" and I'm going to tell you. First of all, you have so many lives to live, honey. I can't tell you how much excitement there is with each new one you step in to. That's why you don't care how long you live. You don't really care at the soul level what's going on in your life. You just know: oh boy! I get to go to the earth and have an experience of being human. It's such a beautiful thing that you get excited about it. You love it. You jump up and down... So when we do we are not set up with a list that says, "I don't want any diseases that are bad. I don't want to have trouble. I don't want to fall into some sort of disarray with other people and on and on." We don't say that as souls. We say clearly, "Bring it on. Let's have the experience. Let's see what it is going to be about in this life." I had some beautiful experiences. I had all of you who I love so dearly. I had so much that was full and rich in my life that when I reached the age I did when the whole condition, or the illness as we call it, set in I wasn't all thrown out of whack. I didn't just say, "Oh no, what doom." "I found myself reaching out, especially when it got to that place where I didn't know anyone and the memory was so gone. It was in exactly those moments that I was travelling, my dear. I was out there in so many different dimensions, so many different fields of experiences, that there aren't even words that I could come back into my body and explain to you. I couldn't sit there and tell to you - this is where I was, this is what happened, this was unbelievable because there are no words. The travelling was amazing and, yes, it was something that was beneficial to me. I loved being able to then enter back into the flesh and blood of the body. You might ask, "Well, why? If you couldn't do anything, you couldn't remember anything, you couldn't interact in a functional way like you used to, what good was it to travel in all those dimensions and then come right back into a flesh and blood that wasn't doing anything?" Let me tell you that sometimes there are parts of your life that you live on the earth where your intention is not to do anything. Really and truly. Sometimes you are just fine with a turn of events that says, "You can stop thinking. You can stop moving. You can stop making anything have to happen according to the rules that you've been living by." So there was great value in me just laying there. I want you to see this because I want you to let go of this part of me, this part of my life - the part of your mother who existed in such a way that seemed so tragic and do difficult and depressing. I want you to see me differently. To realize that there was great value in the learning that I was having and there was a great sense of peace at being able to end up back in that body." "...I want you to know and see the different part that I was living than you could possibly understand when you would observe me. I want you to begin to absorb this into your understanding of why certain souls choose such a condition as Alzheimer's. I will also tell you that it will never be cured. It is not a condition that can be cured like a disease that has been conquered by our human interest. This is a condition of life that many souls seek, particularly when they get near the end of their lives, and it is a viable way to be. So it will not go away." I just want her to know that I miss her. I hadn't seen her for so long. I turned off to her when she was in that condition. I didn't even go visit because what was the point. I want to make sure she didn't take that personally.Oh yes, that's a whole other reason I wanted to talk to you too, dear. That whole guilt thing - it's so overrated. Just stop it, will you? There's nothing personal at all that I took or that anybody takes in that condition." "So don't, for one minute, think that just because you show up physically, or you don't, that there is something good or bad about that. There really isn't. When you get to the condition that I was in you are just as happy to have everyone go about the business of their life and just send the hellos to you. I could feel that. Every time you prayed or had a moment where you sent some thinking to me I felt it immensely - right to my heart - and I sent the love right back. That's what happens, you know, and that's why I'm so excited you are letting me through to say this."